Its Your Decision

Many a time we had been facing an unfavourable situations, now and then it is just like a vital element of life that test our strength. I have an example for you all to relate with it. “Since, when I was born, and became aware of my surrounding, I saw a race. A race between achievement and failure. A race between one's status compared to others. I had never understood it, not even now, being a B.Tech student. Yes, I accept it, that I don’t understand it. Infact I don’t understand many things. From the source of our culture to the end of others thinking, I do not understand. But this is not what I am here to tell you. I just need someone, I don’t even know whom to say. But I just need someone to listen, someone to understand. Just to listen, for what I have to say about my sentiments, my emotions, my feelings. I know it is of no use to anyone but I am exhausted of keeping it by myself this much.

My father taught me self respect, bravery, aggression, caring, responsibility, honesty, duty, truthful and trustworthiness…. I can’t even write all of them because every moment I spend with him, I learn something new.

While my mother taught me to be sensitive, caring, emotional, touchy, …..no no no. I can’t tell all of it, as I have learnt from the society that these are categorised as the femininely etiquettes and men doesn’t posses it. Society taught me to be brutal, fearless, emotionless, selfish, greed, lust, self centering and many more of it as you can understand it. I can tell you that if you had ever  been in touch with Indian culture, you would understand it much better. My school gave me knowledge on things and surroundings, materials and structures.

Then there comes my girlfriend, who taught me understanding, caring, sensitivity,.......all of it what I once learned from my mother, was flashed back to my memories. But there was a difference there was a thing called Generation gap. Which made me express myself much more efficiently. I mean the hesitation which I felt to share myself with my mother due to generation gap was cured by my girlfriend. Of Course I have my girlfriend to share my feelings and emotions. She is the one whom I can rely upon when I need emotional support.You must be wandering despite of having a girlfriend, why am I sharing these with you. Because I need a judgement. A judgement which is unbiased.

Even I learned something from myself too, which is nothing new but a selective of those thing what I learned in my life till now.

Then some external force invades your comfort zone and declares you as socially unacceptable. Shows you the worse you could be.

Where you had been trying your best for social acceptance your whole life until now and suddenly you are declared as unsocial.

I am unable to judge myself that's why I need you. I am little depressed that's why I need you. I need everyone to understand that's why I need you.. I need you to judge me whether and where I am wrong….”

When a person faces an adversity, an unfavourable environment condition, his primary tendency is to adjust as much as possible, then he dares to alter those situations, but when he is unable to do so, he becomes restless, loses mind stability. Some tries to act aggressively while others tends to get depressed. My personal advice for such situation is to speak it out, speak what you really feel, but not what you think. Use wise words to show the inconvenience but never show that you are weak. You have to be polite enough to let them understand, but not so much that they under treat your self esteem. Always seek you positiveness as they can give you strength. And be a warrior, to defend you comfort zone. But don’t kill someone in reality. Enjoy your life . Its incredible.